Today.

Today.  Sometimes I don't think I focus enough on today.  I mean how much of today do I spend planning for tomorrow or wondering/worrying about things of the future that haven't happened yet and potentially may not EVER happen?

Today I was reminded that I may not know what road life will lead me down over the upcoming years, months, weeks, or even days. In fact, I'm not entirely certain I always know where I want the future to lead me. THIS STRESSES ME OUT. But then, I am reminded on days like today that it will all work out and be OK. How do I know this?  Because at the end of the day what really matters are the people in my life and gratefully I have the most amazing people in mine.  

HTYA Family Reunion Snowmass, CO 2010

I LOVE my family (this includes my extended family, of course!). Seriously, I am OBSESSED with them.  They're the best. All of them.

NYC Chelsea Market July 2010

If you don't know them- you should get to know them.  That way you can agree with me when I say they are some of the most creative, caring, funny, smart, strong, giving, adventurous, compassionate people EVER. EVER.

Today, and every day for that matter, I was reminded that, in addition to my family, I have the GREATEST people in my life.  All of you. I learn something from each of you and I am glad you're in my life. I'm not always the best at expressing just how much I care about people. For some reason it scares to feel vulnerable and always express exactly what I feel.  But just know that even if I may not say it, I do care. From the friend who called every single day for 8 months after my best friend passed away just to make sure I was doing alright, to the random visits from friends and family to DC and Texas, or people who make time for me when I come to visit, to roommates who will stay  up until all hours of the morning if I need them to, to my funny co-workers who leave surprises in my cube (some good, some bad), to the 5 friends who got married this past year and I got to come be a bridesmaid (yes, you read that correctly. I bought 5 bridesmaid dresses in approx. a year) to all the runs, brunches, lunches, dinners, etc. with wonderful friends that just make life better by getting to catch up with them, to the random texts, phone calls, emails, flowersm Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Sonic runs, and more. Thank you. I just love all the people in my life.

Here's a little recap of all the bridesmaid dresses...not quite 27 Dresses...

Today I was reminded just how grateful I am for one of my very best friends, Amber.  She was like a sister to me. She knew me better than almost anyone. We could spend hours doing absolutely nothing and still have the best time and the best memories (usually they involved me embarrassing myself in some way or Amber forcing me out of my comfort zone which then once again usually led me to embarrassing myself...again.) Amber passed away unexpectedly last May. I miss her daily. And yet, I am grateful I know that I will see her again one day. I will forever be grateful for her and she will always be with me because more than anything she helps me want to live for today and love it.  I don't always succeed but I want to be better at realizing the value in being given today.  That today anything really is possible and to make the most of it. She seemed to always make the most of each day and I want to follow in that path. 

No matter what happens or doesn't happen in my life it will all be OK because it's the people in my life that matter and it's those people that will help you get through those times when you wonder if you can make it through today. So for now...I want to just enjoy today.